Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
From Howie Day, Collide..
I love this song. While it is surely for two people, it even works for just one. Struggling against ourself. Sometimes even I don't know where to start. It is like my mind completely crashes and burns on me without a whole lot of notice. And then I don't know where to start. This doesn't happen often, but enough for me to see it coming. Suddenly even getting the mail seems like an effort. I don't wipe down the counters or put the dishes in the dishwasher (I know, I know, so not me..) So was the case this past weekend. Call it "the heart breaks again" for me, but I don't think it always has to be something so dire, so upsetting, it can just be you lose steam for awhile. Here is what I found..
Just go with it for a day, or two, or three..whatever you need, without going overboard. Do what you must do, the minimum, and just allow yourself to float for awhile. It will feel odd, and probably not grounding, but at the same time all you can really do. Watch a bunch of TV, read books, get a lot of sleep, retreat from the world for awhile if you need to. All of this might be hard if you have little kids, or a sick spouse, parent, etc..but wanting to run away for awhile is a common thing we all share. I believe we live in a society that puts on us, this never ending need to look happy, successful, together, social (aka Facebook constantly!) in charge and making great strides..truth be told, I believe that is somewhat of a farce. Really, did people even do that 50 years ago, let alone 100, 200?
Anyhow, after I have my extended quiet time, I realize I have to get back into the swing of things, before my mind rots. But it can be hard to know where to start again..Start small. Go get the mail. Wash the dishes. Pay some bills. Simple easy things. Remember, "What About Bob" and "baby steps.."??? Baby step your way back out. Make a list of what you need to do, ie the laundry, yardwork, house cleaning, cleaning closets, doctor appointments, tax returns, and just start back in. Oddly enough, this has all just hung out in the quiet waiting for you.
While I am usually a cleaning machine and somewhat freaky about organizing, I too have times I just cannot get it going,I just want to hide away.
Once you get your mind back on track with tasks, plan some fun stuff, go shopping at Target for a pick me up--works for me! Plan something fun in the near future. Do something creative to get the wheels rolling again. And you are back--organizing your mind and life again, and it does feel good :) You collide with you again.
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
From Howie Day, Collide..
I love this song. While it is surely for two people, it even works for just one. Struggling against ourself. Sometimes even I don't know where to start. It is like my mind completely crashes and burns on me without a whole lot of notice. And then I don't know where to start. This doesn't happen often, but enough for me to see it coming. Suddenly even getting the mail seems like an effort. I don't wipe down the counters or put the dishes in the dishwasher (I know, I know, so not me..) So was the case this past weekend. Call it "the heart breaks again" for me, but I don't think it always has to be something so dire, so upsetting, it can just be you lose steam for awhile. Here is what I found..
Just go with it for a day, or two, or three..whatever you need, without going overboard. Do what you must do, the minimum, and just allow yourself to float for awhile. It will feel odd, and probably not grounding, but at the same time all you can really do. Watch a bunch of TV, read books, get a lot of sleep, retreat from the world for awhile if you need to. All of this might be hard if you have little kids, or a sick spouse, parent, etc..but wanting to run away for awhile is a common thing we all share. I believe we live in a society that puts on us, this never ending need to look happy, successful, together, social (aka Facebook constantly!) in charge and making great strides..truth be told, I believe that is somewhat of a farce. Really, did people even do that 50 years ago, let alone 100, 200?
Anyhow, after I have my extended quiet time, I realize I have to get back into the swing of things, before my mind rots. But it can be hard to know where to start again..Start small. Go get the mail. Wash the dishes. Pay some bills. Simple easy things. Remember, "What About Bob" and "baby steps.."??? Baby step your way back out. Make a list of what you need to do, ie the laundry, yardwork, house cleaning, cleaning closets, doctor appointments, tax returns, and just start back in. Oddly enough, this has all just hung out in the quiet waiting for you.
While I am usually a cleaning machine and somewhat freaky about organizing, I too have times I just cannot get it going,I just want to hide away.
Once you get your mind back on track with tasks, plan some fun stuff, go shopping at Target for a pick me up--works for me! Plan something fun in the near future. Do something creative to get the wheels rolling again. And you are back--organizing your mind and life again, and it does feel good :) You collide with you again.
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