I cannot believe it has been almost 4 months since I wrote this blog. My life stopped 4 months ago. While divorce is not really the focus of this blog, that is what stopped it. Just like that, I had nothing to say. Decorating and cleaning and making a home beautiful were so far from my reality that I could not even find them, let alone the words. Like the poem from Four Weddings and a Funeral, by Auden,
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
My clock stopped. There was no day or night, there was no time, I could barely breathe. And it seemed silly to even think about fireplaces, or organizing, or the Magic Eraser, beyond silly, it seemed to be cruel to my heart that these things even had importance.
And so I stopped. At least for awhile. But as he moved out and I waited awhile to put the house back together, and slowly I had to, and had to buy some things, and I could not hold back the happiness I find in putting a home together and keeping it cleaned and organized, in many ways this is my soul's work, it saves me.
I am sure there are not many followers, are there any? I don't know...but I plan to be back now. I love home and garden and my home life is like my own little spirtual sanctuary, my temple, and being with it keeps me on my path.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
My clock stopped. There was no day or night, there was no time, I could barely breathe. And it seemed silly to even think about fireplaces, or organizing, or the Magic Eraser, beyond silly, it seemed to be cruel to my heart that these things even had importance.
And so I stopped. At least for awhile. But as he moved out and I waited awhile to put the house back together, and slowly I had to, and had to buy some things, and I could not hold back the happiness I find in putting a home together and keeping it cleaned and organized, in many ways this is my soul's work, it saves me.
I am sure there are not many followers, are there any? I don't know...but I plan to be back now. I love home and garden and my home life is like my own little spirtual sanctuary, my temple, and being with it keeps me on my path.
